Weigh in time

The time has come! It's weigh-in time... Has all my hard work paid off? I feel much better and healthier. I'm still struggling with the smoking thing but I can still workout and eat fairly well so all things in time.

Somewhere between starting this blog and actually joining the gym (Christmas and new year) I gained some weight and some centimetres. I'm a little peeved about that but it was self inflicted and I didn't gain as much as I had previously lost so I'm still in track for the summer.

I haven't touched the tins of slimfast I just can't bring myself to.

I did however buy another pack of alli to boost me along and because they were on special offer. 

My weight has dropped by around 2 1/2kg my waist has dropped but I'm not sure how much because I bloat and fluctuate so much my upper body strength has increased. I can now do 3 push ups on my toes lol seems like nothing but it's a major achievement to me. My clothes aren't strangling me any more although they're hardly hanging off of me.

I've been wearing my old corset in an attempt to 'train' my waist. It also prevents me from over eating if I ever get a lil carried away.

I've booked a personal trainer for 15 sessions which I will work around my current twice a day gym visits.

I've had this PT before I couldn't manage anything else after his sessions I was tired and sore and even shaking lol.

I'm pleased with my slow but steady progress.

Excuse the lack of clothing in the first pics I feel a lil sick looking at them myself but I intend to be a boss girl! Ripped n strong lol 

Finally off the starting block

Soooo I've made it back to the gym, I'm going regularly and even have a gym buddy. I'm logging my food and exercise on myfitnesspal to help me look at what I'm eating and encourage myself to exercise and for me most importantly meal plan.

I'm down to smoking 2 cigarettes a day, but in all honesty I could do with smoking none!

I'm still a fur-less Cookie Monster but I'm not gaining weight with it because I refuse I have cheat weekends instead of cheat days lol but I plan to workout twice a day instead of once, eventually. The biggest loser contestants workout for around 4 hours a day and they look great so it can't be bad for me. 

I've got a lot if weight to lose and summers fast approaching I'm weighing in at 106.9kg and 120cm waist (boohoo)  

I'm not upset I know I can lose it I've done it before but now u know how important exercise is to my general health altogether. I've been able to sleep which is fanatastic for dealing with my children ad also regulating what I'm eating.

As soon as my daughter settles in preschool I'll have 3 hours a day to workout, clean, shop whatever I need to do quickly and most importantly quietly lol.

I need to get an MP3 player, a new sports bra and maybe some leggings too.

I'm already thinking of low maintenance hairstyles I can wear whilst working out regularly. 

I haven't had much use for but I am taking alli on my cheat days or any meals that include fried food. I have probably less than 10 left and when they're gone they're gone!

I need to use up those 3 tins of slim fast in my cupboard, they're taking up space. My intolerance to milk means I'll have to find an alternative to mix them with. I'm thinking rice milk or plain old water and oats for slow release.

I'm due a weigh in at the gym in 4 weeks so I'll update you.

One down!

I did it!!! I finished decorating. I have accomplished something, it took forever but I did it. 

I haven't been exercising or dieting after all that hype lol, but after I cut most dairy products out of my diet including chocolate, bread etc I found less bloating I haven't measured or weighed my self but I feel lighter and when I do eat those things they pretty much run through me or make me nauseous. Now that's a surprise for me because I've been bingeing on them as long as I can remember.

Christmas is fast approaching and there is going to be a lot of food easily available, snacks big meals and puddings  I'm not sure whether to start my exercise now or after sounds dumb but building up momento is not easy, trust me!

I am determined to buy just as much fruit as I do sweets and treats if not more and try the little and often thing rather than one big meal n loads of sweets.

I've got a heck of a lot of cleaning to catch up on, that burns calories plus my home sits on 3 floors so I'll run up the stairs rather than walk.

I'm making an appointment with my doctor to get help with stopping smoking it's the main reason I'm scared to exercise.

Little easily achievable steps that's what I'm aiming for. 

I might do a pre Christmas weigh-in we'll see how brave I feel standing infront of the scales

Oh dear

I still haven't started insanity, I'm due on and so I've been eating like it's going out of fashion and I bought a 10 pick I cigarettes!!! 

Not going very well for me at all.

I had hesitations about having partners for these things because unlike most circumstances where when one fails and the other lifts them back up, me and my friends fail as well so the other doesn't feel so bad lol absolute madness!

I'm going it alone, I'm lending insanity to another friend who may be more dedicated and provoke me into trying it with her results. 

But for now I'm looking into a personal trainer to get me motivated and blast some fat off so the results push me into all steam ahead mode.

The hardest part of getting fit is getting off the sofa once you've done that you're ready to go but I seem to be lacking the sieve to get up like my expanding waist isn't enough reason.

I'm not going to beat myself up I'm going to keep trying to start once I'm up I know I can achieve great things. 

As for the decorating... That's also happening in extreme slow motion! But I'm doing it I hope to have finished by the weekend I've been so busy u don't get much time to focus on what's good for me.

Pray for me people! I'm going in... Again!

Day 3

It's no use, I can't do it. I need to go bk to the gym! I need the support of the trainers. I need to know that when home is an upside down mess I can escape for an hour or two and come back refreshed.

I have no will power or motivation :(

I'm a real foodie I think about cooking and eating all day it's almost an obsession. I love healthy food I'm a funny-tarian, meaning I only eat chicken, turkey, fish and prawns and all fruit and veg I can afford. It's the carbs!!! The breads, the cakes, the pasta, the rice, the muffins, the chocolate!!! Unlike cigarettes going cold turkey from any of those is virtually impossible, temptation I everywhere!

By the checkouts, infront of the shop doors always on special offer! So bright and colourful and shiny.

How do I defeat that?

I've switched from bread to pitta and wraps, no longer drink cows milk. Someone told me it was pus and that put me right off! I was a dairy lover until last week. Instead I opted for rice milk the equivalent to my skimmed milk.

The fridge is filled with healthier snacks for me and the children. Even cans of tinned fruit now sit in my cupboard.

I suppose I'm trying although I expected it to all happen on Monday it's a life long journey taken one step at a time.

I managed a 5 minute workout this afternoon I honestly thought I was going to pass out loool.

I did it though and I'm craving more so that's a good sign.

I still haven't had a cigarette but I really do want one or maybe two. I'm not gonna quit quitting though it's the only battle I'm winning outright.

Feeling more positive today than yesterday. Looking forward to tomorrow  

Day 2

I am actually wondering what's up with my head!? I haven't exercised yet I've been more conscious of my sweets and stuff but I'm still eating them!

Walking home from school is actually quite tiring it's got me in bed by 10pm nowadays which is a positive more sleep less snacking.

We've bought fruit not as much as necessary but a nice little starter these veggie meals I keep cooking ought to help somewhat.

Diet and exercise not good, still day two no smoking! I'm real cranky and short tempered but I'm doing it cold turkey.

Try again tomorrow lol, I know I said that yesterday.

Day 1

Found my measurements:

Waist 103cm

Hips 123cm

Bust 108cm

Left thigh 73cm

Right thigh 73cm

Neck 38cm

Right arm 37.5cm

Left arm 38cm

Day one I had yesterday's dinner for breakfast spent the majority of the morning on the toilet, thanks to alli! 

Then as I mentally prepared for my workout my buddy called to say someone had stolen her DVD player! Loool what a great start. As I laid in bed the idea went from a bob Harper workout   , to just a few squats to ahhh I'll just stay in bed!

I did however do the 1 1/2-2 mile walk home from school with my girls!

But that was accompanied by 3 or 4 snack size chocolates and a handful of biscuits!

Kind of a real failure at the first hurdle, but I haven't had a cigarette and on a good day I could have eaten through double that much munch.

I realise that I'm so unfit all that walking has tired me out and the lack of cigarettes have got me cranky and a little emotional, the positive side is I've still made a little step towards a better life early night for me I think try again tomorrow