Day 3

It's no use, I can't do it. I need to go bk to the gym! I need the support of the trainers. I need to know that when home is an upside down mess I can escape for an hour or two and come back refreshed.

I have no will power or motivation :(

I'm a real foodie I think about cooking and eating all day it's almost an obsession. I love healthy food I'm a funny-tarian, meaning I only eat chicken, turkey, fish and prawns and all fruit and veg I can afford. It's the carbs!!! The breads, the cakes, the pasta, the rice, the muffins, the chocolate!!! Unlike cigarettes going cold turkey from any of those is virtually impossible, temptation I everywhere!

By the checkouts, infront of the shop doors always on special offer! So bright and colourful and shiny.

How do I defeat that?

I've switched from bread to pitta and wraps, no longer drink cows milk. Someone told me it was pus and that put me right off! I was a dairy lover until last week. Instead I opted for rice milk the equivalent to my skimmed milk.

The fridge is filled with healthier snacks for me and the children. Even cans of tinned fruit now sit in my cupboard.

I suppose I'm trying although I expected it to all happen on Monday it's a life long journey taken one step at a time.

I managed a 5 minute workout this afternoon I honestly thought I was going to pass out loool.

I did it though and I'm craving more so that's a good sign.

I still haven't had a cigarette but I really do want one or maybe two. I'm not gonna quit quitting though it's the only battle I'm winning outright.

Feeling more positive today than yesterday. Looking forward to tomorrow  

Day 2

I am actually wondering what's up with my head!? I haven't exercised yet I've been more conscious of my sweets and stuff but I'm still eating them!

Walking home from school is actually quite tiring it's got me in bed by 10pm nowadays which is a positive more sleep less snacking.

We've bought fruit not as much as necessary but a nice little starter these veggie meals I keep cooking ought to help somewhat.

Diet and exercise not good, still day two no smoking! I'm real cranky and short tempered but I'm doing it cold turkey.

Try again tomorrow lol, I know I said that yesterday.

Day 1

Found my measurements:

Waist 103cm

Hips 123cm

Bust 108cm

Left thigh 73cm

Right thigh 73cm

Neck 38cm

Right arm 37.5cm

Left arm 38cm

Day one I had yesterday's dinner for breakfast spent the majority of the morning on the toilet, thanks to alli! 

Then as I mentally prepared for my workout my buddy called to say someone had stolen her DVD player! Loool what a great start. As I laid in bed the idea went from a bob Harper workout   , to just a few squats to ahhh I'll just stay in bed!

I did however do the 1 1/2-2 mile walk home from school with my girls!

But that was accompanied by 3 or 4 snack size chocolates and a handful of biscuits!

Kind of a real failure at the first hurdle, but I haven't had a cigarette and on a good day I could have eaten through double that much munch.

I realise that I'm so unfit all that walking has tired me out and the lack of cigarettes have got me cranky and a little emotional, the positive side is I've still made a little step towards a better life early night for me I think try again tomorrow

The day before day 1

Today is the last day before I change me whole life!

I don't normally like radical changes like this but I'm testing the mind over matter theory!

I will quit smoking, change my diet drastically and start the insanity DVD again all in one day!!!

I have a quit smoking buddy, and a workout buddy, the eating changes will be happening within my household.

I have about 3 tins of slim fast in the cupboard, they're going first, I have just over half a bottle of alli fat binding tablets too. Once these aids have run out I'll be left with my determination and desire.

I want that t-shirt and as God is my witness I will earn it!

Oh and somewhere in all of this I'm decorating too, I'm going to be so sore how will I lift the roller? loool

I'm not saying I'm not happy looking the way I do, because at my size I still have confidence from the inside, I'm saying my body is a temple and if I would garnish a temple and keep it clean why shouldn't I do that with my body???

I've had my last 3 cigarettes today and my last packet of biscuits as a meal substitute. The 'myfitnesspal' app is installed and ready to go on my phone!

I'm hoping to lose around 2 stone by my 30th birthday just incase someone surprises me with a Miami holiday (dream big).

Measurements are as follows: 

Weight: 228lb

I can't find my tape measure, conveniently, so I'll post them as soon as I find it